just because

Just because it's halloween tonight do I need to go out? I rather just stay in the whole night with my lovely man. Today we had this really nice lazy day, like so many other days lately. hhihi I just love when it rains...

mamma mia!

Incredibile!!! someone must have put a bad spell over me, or is it just another sign that I need to leave Rome???

I was working at the Film Festival yesterday, and all of a sudden when it was raining...it came a storm...and we got evacuated since there were flying walls and benches around.
Then I was being so nice to bring one of the other girls home so she didn't have to take the bus, even though it was on the other side of town from me. I shouldn't have been that nice. OMG!
We got stuck in traffic because the Roma soccer game got cancelled...so we literally moved 10 meters in 40 minutes. Then I finally dropped her off and went back into my direction.
What happens then?? This car infront of me stopped (because a scooter had fallen right in front of him) and I try and stop my car but since it was a flood of water...I slid right into the car in front of me!!! YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH where have my luck been lately?? I just wonder? So now, my car is a wreck...and I was suppose to sell it.

However in all this mess...I got a good sign. I'm moving to San Diego in January got my acceptance letter today! Finally finally something to look forward to....I hope?!
No more working in a design helmet store...now we're talking career guys!!!

what a woman really needs...

Just got back from sweden and I always bring a swedish magazine back. I was reading it yesterday and there was this article talking about crazy women and why us women often get the label "crazy" when we are maybe only "hormonal". I can agree on that...mamma mia, when Im hormonal...I turn into a crazy bitch. the simple cure to this as the article said was

what a woman really needs for her own mental health is a really good dildo.

well I know what works for me...what works for you, is really your business.

I kept reading the magazine and then there was this other article about why some people are always late (including me...) and this psychiatrist said that you can't change these people. so please guys, next time Im late, don't get upset, cause it's really not my fault! Then he said that what's important for these people is to NOT be on time. (Didn't think about that one, but I like it.) further on he said that people who are always late and seem unorganized are usually the people that are most creative and take initiative.

Another thing I read, (my god, this magazine really got me going eh..) was that
stile is foremost a question about intuition. (Bill Blass)
one that has intuition is the sartorialist.

who would have thought?

Seriously, I didn't think that I would ever put up a bible text on my blog, but this just proves that you can never be sure of anything. That's life.
I read on my friend's facebook page and under religion she had post the answer to my question of love earlier today. Here it comes

1 Corinthians 13:1-13
If I speak in the tongues of men and angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a tinkling symbol.
And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
And if I dole out all my goods, and if I deliver my body that I may boast but have not love, nothing I am profited.
Love is long suffering, love is kind, it is not jealous, love does not boast, it is not inflated.
It is not discourteous, it is not selfish, it is not irritable, it does not enumerate the evil. It does not rejoice over the wrong, but rejoices in the truth
It covers all things, it has faith for all things, it hopes in all things, it endures in all things.
Love never falls in ruins; but whether prophecies, they will be abolished; or tongues, they will cease; or knowledge, it will be superseded.
For we know in part and we prophecy in part.
But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will be superseded.
When I was an infant, I spoke as an infant, I reckoned as an infant;
when I became an adult, I abolished the things of the infant.
For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known.
But now remains faith, hope, love,
these three;
But the greatest of these is love.

I think that I just became religious.

back on track

Hopefully Im back on track...writing. It's just that lately I've been more lazy than eveeeer.
So I'm gonna try and start over.
Back in Rome, again. What is it with you bella Roma? What makes me come back all the time?
I felt that I had to take a break, had do take care of some things in Sweden, things called life. And I thought that maybe I would stay there for a little longer than I did in the end.

Love is weird. It's not healthy I think to be in love. Or is it? I just realized that you don't know what you've got until you're missing it a lot. Like the song says.
I've been experiencing things with him that Ive never felt before. The worst thing though is that Ive discovered that Im jealous. ME JEALOUS??? haha if you would have told me two years ago, I would say that you were being stupid, I would never go there! hm right...here I am...and I don't know why...working on it though so please be patient.
What I really think it is though, is not real jealousy, it's just that I'm not satisfied with my life as it is right now and therefore I get more vulnerable and I don't know how to react. So getting my pieces of my puzzle together again, would help a lot I imagine.

After graduation last year, Ive been very confused. Where to go? What to do?
I stayed back in Rome, moved in with the Roman boy(the subject to whom I get jealous sometimes), well he's an adult, but you know what I mean girls. Men will always be boys. Sometimes it's charming and sometimes it's just very annoying.

Well getting back to my puzzle, I applied to go back to uni about a month ago, this time in the States again. Im sure that my long-lost family will be thrilled. They live in Santa Monica and Santa Barbara. Never met them, don't think I ever will. We just share the same features and last name. Where I'll be is San Diego, if they accept me. You never know, but they better because I don't have a plan B. I just know that I need to get away from Rome. Im done with Rome, for now, then you never know if I'll go back. Rome is taking all of my energy, don't know what it is, it's just sucking up all of my positivity and maybe I just need a short seperation from the eternal city.

My friend wrote the other day; The future is the only time that you can still change. He is so right.

So Ill try and do that. Stop being lazy and I'll try to find my track again.