where is my mind???

....

empty.

no more strength

i´ve been having one of these days, when you are questioning everything. i think that I´ve been upset with just about everybody today. hopefully it will pass soon. cause I have no more strength. at all.

i found this

http://www.annahasselberg.blogspot.com/ on internet. 

it´s mine too....haha fun to read. 

my mom is desperate

she called me desperately concerned over the swine flu. she told me to stay in. right mom, it´s impossible! she wasn´t even that happy I got a job, don´t think that she listened, she was just scared that I would get infected. no worries mommie! im strong! =)

an important song

this song has a special meaning to me and my man....

YES! I got it!

I got the job I wanted for over a year. Im becomingthe marketing manager for the Swedish Chamber of Commerce in San Diego. how sweet isn´t that??? 

come here baby and marry me cause now Im more than legal ;) 

susan boyle!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

wow! life is great sometimes isn´t it?

"in my country...."

to give you an idea what I have to deal with here... beautiful women but...oh well...watch for yourself...

code 86?

is that´s what it´s called? that´s what my man said about my adventure yesterday. 

started at my (our) house. I cooked my famous greek chicken to this other Italian couple. we got a little too tipsy and going downtown was no longer an option, so we decided to go out here in the hoods. 

tried to bargain in front of the line, didn´t work. (too bad cause i hate to stand in line!!)

then we got in had a couple of drinks and danced. then M tried to order a drink from this girl at the bar. the girl didn´t get what she wanted so she got upset and pored the drink over the bartender (c´mon, do you wanna put an ashley behind the bar?? they need to stay on the beach....;) so in two seconds M got kicked out! hahahahaha it was hilarious. so we went out and continued at their house and then I was soooo tired I fell asleep before talking to my man on skype! thank god there are cell phones too! 

now im heading over to have a well-deserved brunch, then back to studying. god! you can think that I´m actually becoming a good student....well don´t have your hopes up to high though! 

i actually did

study. now im taking a break though and stumbled upon my friends web-promo. 

they´re awesome! they actually played at my graduation party so some shots are from that at Piper in Rome. 

what ya think? they´re good no?

wake-up call

at 7 am!!! it was my man calling. sweet that he wanted to talk to me, but at 7 am??? hahaha

I had my alarm set on 9 cause today I need to do a lot of studying. however after getting off the phone with him...I feel back to sleep and didn´t wake up until...11.30am. BAD. 

Now I have about 3 hours to do my business law exam, then Im heading over to the ladies house. Don´t know what it is, but they´re studying waaaaaaaay more than me. is it because im lazy or because they´re over-doers? I think more the first one. 

talked to two of my ladies back in europe too. I mean I always wanted to call this one friend on Ireland, see her online all the time. But I´ve never called, why is that? anyway, now i did! 

it´s nice to talk to child-hood friends from time to time. takes you back to your roots. 

Ill probably write in another hour or so, cause I really doubt the fact that Im gonna open the law book on a Saturday when the sun is shining and I have about 10 min to the beach. Ill let you know.  

trying to be

sophisticated. I´ve started my new life a little slow. or maybe not. it does take time to acclimatize one self to a new place, culture, and country. getting started and all that. 

being in school again isn´t that bad after all. we are a great group of students and Im enjoying it actually. even accounting!? yeah I know. weird right? but hey...maybe I grew up after all? 

staying in tonight, and do you know what Im doing? no Im not watching the TV, Im not on facebook (anylonger...) im reading the new york times and the wall street journal!!!! HA! there you go. see im not just a blonde, Im quite sophisticated too! 

release me

release me, release my body, cause im not able to release myself. im better off without you....

come baby.....can´t wait any longer....

in class

im in class right now. a little too hang over from yesterday. but it´s ok. the whole class was out and about and wasted. good fun! 

only that right now, we are sitting here and no one is really following. 

the problem of being blonde, and out going, is that when Im not there, people notices, like the professor right now when she was like, oh how come you werent in class last time? shit! thought she wouldnt notice. too bad! 

im going surfing later...hopefully that will wake me up since the water is ICE cold. 

getting there

I got myself together before. seeing your man on skype can sometimes be more frustrating then not talking at all. weird isn´t it. I had to calm down, so I went on a walk. 

Sweet what you discover when you´re walking. I past by the house where he used to live. went to VONS, a supermarket, strolled around, what i was looking for I have no idea. Got out with my favorite Starbucks coffee the mocha frappuccino. the people in the stores starts to recognize me now too, so I guess Im making myself at home. 

today I had the day off at uni. thank god! even though it´s interesting, one can only be motivated for 1 degree...not the 3rd that im pursuing right now! gimme a break people!!! =)

Hopefully I´ll find myself a really nice job once Im done! Can´t wait to make some good money! oooo how nice that would feel to be rich again! =) 

don´t get me wrong, I am rich...with looooove from my man and my friends! money isn´t everything....however, unfortunately, it is quite a lot. 

without money it´s hard to survive! trust me i know! 

got tired of hearing myself complaining so like I said, I got a grip. Been cleaning, cooking, doing laundry....yeah you know, all the mature grown-up stuff. 

now it´s time to study....we´ll see how far Ill go this time...last time I passed out after 2 pages! 

while you´re waiting for my next input...listen to this one! 

http://maps.google.com/maps?client=safari&rls=en-us&oe=UTF-8&um=1&ie=UTF-8&cid=0,0,8009713497830827500&fb=1&split=1&gl=us&dq=madonna+inn,+san+luis+Obispo&daddr=100+Madonna+Rd,+San+Luis+Obispo,+CA+93405&geocode=18105454493255892818,35.266856,-120.674933&ei=PL_vSanIJ6iEtAOKh-XhCg&sa=X&oi=local_result&ct=directions-to&resnum=1

it´s hard

it´s hard to be strong. Im trying. I´ll make it. but it´s hard. 

I wanna be happy, enjoy my time here. but how can I when my best friend  is on the other side of the ocean? 

and when i talk to him I wanna be happy....but I miss him so much that I cry. 

today he sent me this one...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jBEYyHGbwto

sigh

was thinking....

I´ve been hanging out with these people that are leaving in a week. now what? Im gonna be all "alone" again. 

waiting. waiting....waiting....waiting. How long does one have to wait? baby c´mon, you know Im like a kid that has no patience. hurry up god damn it!!!! 

Roma bella Roma

Oh God how much I miss you, Roma bella Roma!

when you´re not here

this is how I am feeling right now...




sent it to my man, and he was told me it was definitely me when Im angry....get the point?
Im here, you´re there, something in this equation is wrong. totally wrong.

fed up

that´s what I am right now...fed up! 

you know when you are just tired of everything. everything. You wanna escape from everybody and just be. alone. 

this feeling will probably last for like...another hour or two. then im meeting some friends, and Im sure Ill feel better. right now though. please just let me be. alone. 

cali life

Im getting more and more used to the Cali life now. I have my group of friends, many italians of course=P and i go to school, take my car, go grocery shopping, clean the house...yeah you know the usual non-vacational stuff. Today I went to the beach,  a little too windy for my taste, but hey you can´t have everything! 

went home so that i could talk to my man on skype, great invention that thing...swedish of course! it feels like he is right in front of me (which he in theory is, but on the screen) the only problem is that sometimes I just wanna fly into the screen so that I can just feel him, smell him and kiss him all over. 

shit it´s getting really hard being away for so long from each other. 

now Im gonna go and by a new bikini, more or less

 all that you need here, oh and a pair of flip-flops of course! 

A brain is definitely something you won´t need, the main part of the Americans are without one so if you wanna fit it in, you don´t have to be that smart! 

here is some music for you to enjoy

i don´t bite

I really don´t! however I know that sometimes people can get intimidated by me or think that Im a snob,  but trust me, Im not!!! actually people who think that don´t know me at all. Im the total opposite! I do however know, that right now, Im not really myself to one-hundred percent, I can´t be, cause my other half is missing. we had to change the plans, he was supposed to come next week, now he´s coming in a month. I had a shock, it was the same feeling as when you are little and are really looking forward to that surprise, and you know it´s getting closer and closer ´til you are gonna get it, and then upsie---you´ll have to wait even longer!!! the worst part about it was, that i didn´t not only feel like that 5 year old, but I acted like one too. I stayed in and cried all day....well half of the day! that´s when I realized how much I actually love my man. so maybe it´s good that we´ve been apart...I knew that I loved him before, but now when we are apart I realize how much too, and it surprised me, I didn´t think that I was capable of loving someone this much. 

wow...enough of that cheesy love crap now! iiiii it even gets too sweet for me to write about.

to another thing...Im sorry but you americans, is the saying right after all? do you really get your driver´s license in the kelloggs´box??? ;) 

from being used of driving in Rome, it´s really hard for me to adapt to this slow-motion driving I will get used to it though Im sure...and maybe even like it after a while!?

no...now it´s time for me to say goodnight. ooo and happy easter!!!

the land of opportunities...

I wonder? that´s what it´s famous for though. 

I´ve done this one too many times though, usually it takes no time at all for me to settle in. Now ive been here two weeks, and it´s harder than I thought it would be. 

Maybe because I don´t have the energy to go out and about. Ive already lived the university life, twice too. The people I met are nice, I don´t really have energy to make close friendship though...unfortunately. I think also because I miss my man so much. I close myself in my shell, waiting for him to arrive! I should go out though...not sit at home. Im not a lonely bird. This week I´ve been though. If I sit at home, Ill cry though so I need to go out. great. im leaving...now! 

my man sent me this picture this morning...I think that he misses me too. (he had written it on the wall =) 

my new home

Im still getting used to the fact that Im here. Im like a roller coaster with my feelings, in fact it´s better if I don´t think at all. 

Ive been a busy little bee running around trying to fix everything. Im still missing

my california driver´s license

a car (im renting one)

more furniture

more money (im gonna go and ask for jobs today)

and last but definitely not least- MY MAN!!! I miss him so much 

that it feels like im breaking inside, can´t breath too deep because then it hurts too much. 

He´s coming soon though! can´t wait. then it will all be good again.