my bro

Wow, im soooo emotional right now. My dear dear friend gave me a call and stopped by. we used to live together, he was my brother. Still is in my heart. Then for some stupid reason we lost contact, and I haven't seen him since May. Until now. Incredibile. I'm so happy!
Take my advice; Don't ever loose contact with your dear friends, they are not that many and too precious not to have in your life.

Can you resist? Don't think so

I just realized we have these cool t-shirts in the store! You should pass by if you are in Rome and get one. They are freakin nice. T-shirts with the print that famous people worn in the 70s, made by www.wornby.co.uk


Check this print out-------->
If you stop by and get a T-shirt I'll give you a Swedish cookie too! Can you resist?

help!

Ok, I admit, it's my fault. I was late for work. My boss wasn't thrilled as you can imagine, and now he's arriving and I'm scared!!! I brought some Swedish ginger cookies and it's said that they have a calming effect on you so you turn nice. I think I'll give him the whole box.

It's first of advent today. In Sweden it's the beginning of Christmas. So tonight we are lighting the first candle and drink glogg, a special type of hot red wine. Yummieeeeee

I didn't sleep this night. Not because I was out partying. Because the world is changing and the weather, the storm, kept me awake. Then some other things kept me awake too. Things I can't explain. I'm gonna light the first candle now.

remember

To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

so it is

how I love my friends.talked to L before, she always makes me laugh, and she is just me. then we have M -you are fantastic, absofuckinglutely fantastic. she is now dragging me out to Hard Rock, exactly what I wanted with out knowing. and i'm sooo excited.

it's official

it's official guys, oh my god! wow...can't believe it, but it's a fact. I've lost it. Completely.

thank god I'm leaving, I'm slowly turning into one of them. the bitches. can't believe it. thank god I'm leaving. Help!

long or short?

that's what Im thinking about right now. Long or short? Well I just need a change, and girls usually change their hair first of all. so that's what Im thinking about doing. I know that I will regret it if I cut my long hair off, but it will grow right? Like I once read why do we cut our bangs only to wait for them to grow back out?

is it because we like to have something to look forward to? or is it because we are never satisfied?

well, i don't know, but I do know that in the end I probably won't cut them after all.

even though, these two beautiful ladies got away with it pretty well, don't you think?

oh heads up!

heads up for my new header! don't you just love it? I do...
thanks johan!

everything but..

that's what i'm doing right now, everything but doing what I should. but the last couple of days the weather has been shitty here in roma, and Ive been feeling shitty and I just need to be. even during the night I dream about running around and Im always late for things and I get no rest. so I had my nice little lunch today and a glass of wine. iiii i know...almost forbidden, but I do live in italy so it's ok. hehe

to feel a little bit better I think that I will go shopping today, or at least window-shopping. but I might buy some make-up or something. probably from benefit which is my new favourite. =)







I mean, who wouldn't want this little package--->
It can be yours for only 58 dollars




But always remember that...

stop staring

i was sitting in front of the computer and I felt really stared at. i looked to my right and there in a bowl a goldfish was staring at me. and we sat there staring at each other for like a minute. didn't know if my boss pulled a joke on me or what the heck he was thinking placing it there. I mean i feel like a goldfish sometimes...by people staring at me when passing by the shop, but c'mon poor fish!!!

have a piece of cake...

yes, have it, take the piece of cake that is sooo tempting. eat it, and while you eat it, know that the cake it came from is no longer whole, there is a piece missing now.

not your business

It´s non of your business how I live my life or what decisions I make. So why do you care? Why do you go around and talk about it? 

Is it because your life sucks? Because you´re single? Because you don´t have a lover. I know it´s frustrating not to get laid and you might get sexually frustrated, but take it out on yourself. Go to the gym or something. Just don´t talk about stuff that you don´t have anything to do with. You might hurt people. I´m sorry to say this, but especially here in Rome, girls and guys too for that matter, talk too much about their so called friends. INVECE FATEVI I CAZZI VOSTRI! Or if you like to talk bad about me, or my friends to others, you are not my friend, so next time I see you, don´t even pretend to be, cause there is a risk I might spit on your shoes or something. Just so you know. If you really want me to know something, tell it to my face. If you dare....

crisis?

did you know that it´s all numbers, that in reality what the amount says on your bank account statement, is not really real money. it´s just numbers. what do you think happens if everybody panics and actually wants to take out their money, that´s not really existing? the bank will fall, the economy will fall, states and persons will fall. so please, don´t panic guys. 

now everybody talks about the crisis, which is understandable. it affects us all, however, it will affect you even more if you freak out and start taking out all of your money from the bank, can you see that? also, if you have money in stocks, why would you want to take them out now, when you´ll only loose. why not wait until it´s all over and hopefully you will even make some money?

time to get somewhat serious here guys, it´s our future, please don´t f--k it up. 

I studied marketing and communication. I think that in almost everything you can apply some marketing method, or in everything some communication strategy. On a country for example. In politics.  I don´t know why, but I´ve always had an A in all my politics classes and I can´t really say that I like to talk about it nor discuss it. However, I think it would be necessary if like for example, big organizations, they call in an expert group that follow the company for a while, then conclude a rapport with all the pros and cons. wouldn´t it be fantastic if they could do that with countries? obviously ministers wouldn´t know the best for their country cause they´re so blinded by their party philosphy (and own success maybe?) and hence they´ll miss out on what they really need to do for their country. I know it would be impossible, but it´s needed, especially here in Italy! I know keep dreaming right....

delicious nipples!

yesterday i tasted these delicious nipples, and I almost had an orgasm. they were absofuckinglutely delicious. they were covered in strawberry-chocolate and when you took a small bite, this champagne cream came out, and then i was in heaven! they came from casetta di cioccolato, a tiny chocolate store i stumbled upon on my walk. if you are in rome, you should try them...trust me, you won´t regret it! ;) 

wonderful...just wonderful

alone with my thoughts, unable to do anything but thinking, reflecting or reading. currently listening to a swedish radiostation. sometimes i like to do that, even if I don't particularly feel swedish most of the time, sometimes it's nice to feel belonging to somewhere, and my passport, currently, is swedish.

i had the most amazing afternoon ever.
Im not a church-goer, sometimes i do go though, like today. it's my favourite church here in rome. funny thing, it's the favourite church of my man too, so yet another thing we have in common. destiny you might think. luck I say.

then we walked around on the streets of rome, holding hands, and I felt like the luckiest and happiest girl in the world.

feeling loved is a fantastic feeling, that love, that special love, from the one, that kind of love. that's how i felt.

everything was just so beautiful and perfect and totally wonderful. I don't know for how long it will last, I can only hope for a looooong looooong time.

i bet u didnt know...

that i made this video...well i was the assistant to the director. not bad eh...well the song is up to you to judge, but look at the picture, not to the right, but in the video. what do you say, do I have a chance as director?

ela weber-voglio solo amare (i only wanna love)

what will be will be

so that's probably why I still don't know what there will be, cause the future is not ours to see.
I'm still waiting patiently....

wanna know 2morrows hit?

working, it's sunday, I don't care Im soooo happy today.

was surfing around facebook, the new drug i think, anyhow, one of my ladies in Sweden posted a website, her brother's, and I since im so curious I just had to check it out, and guess what...this is tomorrows, if not already todays, new artist!
>>> www.mondji.com <<< it's sweeeeeeeeeet guys, you just need to check it out, it's an order not a suggestion!

sex attracts

i realized, i guess I already knew that sex attracts. so I found this other one that MTV has done. >>>>check it out<<<<. and use condom guys ;)



so i was dead all day yesterday couldn't move due to the heavy partying Thursday. I guess that's how you know that you're getting older. it's a problem guys.



got an invitation with the post Friday, from Bread and Butter in Barcelona. for you who are not familiar with the fashion world, it's one of the world's best and famous fashion fair and if you wanna be seen with your brand, that's the place to be at. The invitation is really cool, they sent me a passport, nice marketing! i just wish i could go to find some new brands, but I'll be in Cali by then.



tonight im heading over to my favourite place here in rome, salotto 42 and then dinner with my dear friends. Enjoy your night, it's Saturday!

video

Erik Hassle-hurtful

I have nothing to do with this video, or none I know. I just like it.
the fact that erik hassle looks like my dad at young age makes it a little funny i think.
that's all today folks since I went out yesterday, drank waaaaaaaaaaay too much and created some more drama. Im a dramaqueen when i drink. OMG today Im embarrassed.

Today's rose goes to my lovely, handsome and patient man for still loving me.
mwah!

bored

Im bored-can you tell??? it´s raining, not cats and dogs but i think elephants, and it´s not thunder and lightning it´s bombs. 

so what do I do, I write and search. 

gonna try this one above. hopefully it will be as fabulous as they promise. 

and if you have too much money and don´t know what to do with them either you

1) send them to me (if you ask Ill give you my account number)

2) or buy this ridiculously expensive creme della creme from Dior L´or de Vie

oh and one more thing. am writing on my lovely MacBook, but it seems like blogger.com hasn´t upgraded its system for us mac bloggers to be able to manage our blogs. SHAME ON YOU! we are currently in 2008, and it´s ridiculous that it doesn'´t work. 

dear loved friends

I just have to tell you, now when I have the chance. I love you, and Im so greatful to have you in my life. Without you things would be boring and black. You are all over the world, and sometimes I don't get to see you that often, or I haven't seen you for years, but you are still my dear friend. Sometimes I loose contact with you, due to different circumstances, but if you haven't hurt me too much, you are still in my thoughts and I smile when I think about you.

daily fortune

wow been having second thoughts lately like "maybe I'm too old to move across the atlantic, why move when I have almost everything here?" hm...that almost though, is very important. It's true, I have everything, except the job I want. so I read my daily fortune today and guess what, it had the answer to my doubts...


There is nothing permanent except change. If you long for stability and an unchanged situation, things can not move forward-with openness you and your love can grow and grow together.


Here is a Swedish artist that I like at the moment, dedicated to my man....yeah you're right, a little cheesy but hey-...it's ok sometimes.

do u use condom?

Have sex but use condom, haven´t we heard it before? Right. And do you use it? 

Hm...c´mon be honest! It´s a serious thing. Really, it is!

I got my elementary school education from Sweden. Did you know that Sweden in 1955 was the first country in the world to have obligatory sex education in school for 12 year olds? What about here in Italy? Wouldn´t think so...the Pope is in town and therefore everything that has to do with sex is hush hush, and that´s where the problem is. They are against abortions, but they don´t teach their kids about safe sex, and 70% of the population is unfaithful, meaning they sleep around.

Again I read an article in Damernas Värld 13/08 (yes it´s Swedish, the title means The ladies world=) and it said to sleep with less people, forget about one night stands, fuckbuddies, to have your sex debut when you´re older, then find the ideal sex partner with no sexual transmitted disease and then stay faithful to that person for the rest of your life. Right. Don´t think that you fit into that description, and if you do, I feel somewhat sorry for you. I don´t believe that you'll find the one unless you tried some "other fish in the sea." 

The article continues saying that there is no tabu in doing commercials or to write articles about how dangerous it is to smoke, eating fat food and to not exercise, so why is it tabu to talk about how dangerous sex can be? 

I say talking about sex should be normal, you don´t need to talk about positions, how many orgasms you had or how many partners for that matter, but if you talk about sex I think the awareness of stds will grow and hence the number of "victims" fall too. 

Did you know for example that the most common std is clamydia, and if not treated (there are really no symptoms) can lead to that women can´t get pregnant and men get a testicle inflammation. Sounds like fun? No eh...then I suggest that if you have more than one sex partner, use condom first of all or don´t have sex, but I don´t think you will let go of that. Also get yourself tested once in a while, you never know. Do it for your own sake. Not for your mother, your father, the Pope, or someone else, but for YOU. 

Well that´s today´s lesson folks, so lets put your hands together for a random applause to this Swedish mag, for all the fun reading! YEAAAAAAAAAAAY. 

me like-do u?

just gotta contribute to the "fashion bloggism" STEVEN SHEIN loves you there I found it in the Swedish magazine again. just gotta love the shit.

the stress of tetris

Imagine Tetris, but tetris with only the t-shaped and z-shaped forms coming down, and to get forward you have to make yourself into a jellyball-that's the traffic in Rome.



going to work today i felt like the z-shaped form that didn't fit into any part. it was waaaay too many cars, scary really but that's yet another problem, however after around 20 "vaffancuolos" in like 5 min I decided to take the taxi lane. I mean I can do that, theoretically no, but since I have my Swedish licence plate, I can (if they stop me I pretend Im a tourist.)
Then I heard on the radio that all public transportation was out due to strike, and here in Italy that happens let's say, maybe 5 times a month??? time to do something about it, maybe?

one thought

work. am in the helmet store again. Im trying, I really am. but it's hard to be enthusiastic and sell helmets when you have two bachelors.

ooo started to write that and all of a sudden two greeks came in, and Ive been helping them for half an hour, and ever since...I had nice people coming in and it was actually fun! so i guess that has been the problem. nothing to do, and it gets boring, and Ill do a bad job. something to do, and it gets fun and I do a better job. Simple as that. Also, if its not Italians, cause really most of the time they're just rude. why is that? don't know but it makes me wanna leave even faster. some people just think that they are better and others, and it gives them an attitude, but hey guys, I'm sorry, you're not better than others so putting up an attitude only makes you ridiculous. so think about that next time!

now Im gonna enjoy working and actually try my best, cause I know im good.
A helmet anyone?

oh dear

during the day I get so many ideas on what to write..then when I finally have time to sit down and actually write. they're all gone. it's the same when you have something important to say-and then you just loose your thought, even though you have it on the tip of your tongue. strange how the brain works, and they say that we are only using a small percentage of the total capacity. me even less.

I'm hungry, there's a resturant right outside the shop and this woman is sitting there eating, right in front of me! maybe Ill go out there and grab a piece from her plate. I always wanted to do that in the resturant. i mean how funny wouldn't that have been, if Im sitting there and all of a sudden try my next table neighbour's food. haha imagine the reaction.

well in the search of my other thoughts I put a stop to this one.

girlie stuff

I just love it-sex and the city, can't help it, it's not a fashion thing, it's not because the movie just came out, it's because it's so f-ing good! (just don't watch it with your boyfriend, there's a small chance he can freak out when he realizes what us ladies are talking about sometimes...hrm...quite often...all of the time?)

Was thinking about writing a complaint to christian dior. I use to always buy there make-up. now last time I tried the new mascara of theirs, the iconic. my ass it's iconic. it makes a mess, the eye lashes sticks together and it leaves marks (i mean do I have to be punished because I was born with long eye-lashes?) but Im disspointed, used to love dior. then my budget right now doesn't allow me to buy my favourite powder, blush and eye-shadow-bare minerals. here in europe, they're really expensive, and they don't even have it in italy. so I had to buy loreal's mineral stuff-and let me tell you one thing. IT SUCKS. my conclusion to all of this-there's only one original-I wonder if they can do mascara too? mineral mascara maybe baby?

you can dance-having the time of your life!

sat in traffic like everyday -and so many times before- yesterday. realizing that the only time when I actually take the time to look around me is when trapped in traffic and I discovered so many nice little shops. just hoping that Ill actually live life better when I get to SD. but who knows...haha

ooo it's coming closer, actually so close that Im already late to buy the ticket. but as always before moving somewhere, maybe also cause I've never been there before (but I've done that with all the places Ive moved too, gets more exciting that way-or am I wrong?) I have, like all the other times before, second thoughts though. am I doing the right thing? should I've gone to NYC instead? but Im born on the westcoast and I am a westcoast girl- so NO I'm doing the right thing. it's time for a change. changes are scary-but good.

my man told me yesterday when I asked him what he thought and he answered me "I can tell you what I think but in the end, you are so stubborn so you'll do what you want to and you'll get away with it, you always have. just like a child" he's right. with shame I admit that sometimes I act like a spoiled child. so time to grow up and face the truth-im an adult woman! scary thought hahaa.

listening to the absolutely fantastic mamma mia-the movie-and it just makes me sooo happy makes me think of the times in performing art school. what a blast. dancing everyday! me like! then I was thinking, Im lucky to be a swede, really I am very fortunate. not only have the swedes invited good things but the way our country works, im just proud to say Im a swede!

ooo and just to see james bond singing SOS it's just so worth it.

cosy

sitting here in our small apartment. actually it is his, but I slowly, actually right away, moved in....upsieee. I just love it though. It's our little boat. Now I'm sitting here alone, he's out watching soccer. Listening to some good music, have lit candles and a glass of red wine. priceless.

today it's been raining like crazy and I've just been lazy. did grocery shopping and felt good about myself, cooked for my man and he loved it. the way to a man's heart is through the tummy, so I've heard and so I believe.

I've been talking to my girlfriends a lot lately. sometimes it's just nice to talk to the same sex and having the feeling that they actually understands what you really mean.
Im just really happy to have my friends. today I had soooo many new emails from my friends in the states that are excited im coming back. Im just fortunate to have that many friends that I have. and all over the world for that matter!
so here's to you ladies... http://br.youtube.com/watch?v=qhjjvEgiE_U

my man gets it

From my friend's blog.

Förstår ni inte att munnen är nyckeln till resten?Det är med din kyss du visar
för mig vad du går för.Det är din mun mot min som ger mig en försmak av vad som
komma skall.Dina läppar, din tungspets och din förmåga att göra mig knäsvag, ge
mig gåshud, hjärtklappning och se till att mitt hela omdöme raseras är vad din
kyss har för uppgift.

Obviously you probably don't understand Swedish. But Ill translate it for you. OK here it goes.

Don't you understand that the mouth is the key to the rest? It's with your kiss that you show me what you are good for. It's your mouth against mine that will give me the taste of the rest. Your lips, your tounge and your ability to make my knees weak, give me goose bumps, heartbeats and that's the purpose of your kiss.

It's all about the kiss.

good or bad?

working. this chinese guy came in...looked at me and asked me when he would use the helmet, and then asked me if it was appropriate to use it when driving a car? hahaha only if riding with me....



soooo sleepy today. im getting older so Saturday is still paying off. plus there is no one in the store so all Ive been doing is looking at my friends blogs. you can find anything out there.

some are good, some are bad. I think mine hits the second category. but do I care? no. I write because it gives me something to do.

but then there are all these serious bloggers who actually categorizes themselves and even sometimes gets paid for writing the shit they are writing. funny really. good deal though. I doubt that I'll ever get money for writing my thoughts hahaha people sometimes even don't wanna listen since I talk too much.



check this blog out though. the girl writing it is fantastic. I know, I used to live with her and before going out she always helped me put together and outfit.

http://sidewalkisarunway.com



and if you would happen to understand Swedish, check this one out which is my Swedish friend writing about the western world's "problems"

http://johansilandsproblem.blogg.se



blogs can be dangerous though. my other friend is writing one, and if read by wrong people it can be misunderstood- and trust me, it's nothing to recomend, especially not here in Rome, where people just love drama.

let's make heaven a place on earth

in the helmet store working right now. it's sunday and I just wanna be in bed. working is good though...

yesterday I went to have a glass of wine after work, met such nice people which makes me believe that there is still hope! Then I took my girly friend (can't write girlfriend cause then some people might get some weird fantasy...) out to dinner and we had a real nice dinner with all that girltalk that you just need sometimes. Then we went to meet my other girlfriends and had some more wine. bubbly though. then we went clubbing. not that nice. really tired of the club scene in Rome.

you just need to appreciate the small things during the day. otherwise you'll just go mad.

yesterday I heard this old song and I got the nice warmy feeling inside. the 80s was something special...not only because I was born.