crying...

... like a baby right now. I was supposed to feel good tonight. not working. parents out on a concert. the house to myself. watching a movie, a romantic comedy called ps I love you. and what is it about? Love of course. only that the main character dies. in a brain tumor. great! and that is why Im now crying like a baby. f***k. it's not easy.... i miss you more than I ever thought I would. and now ur probably smiling up there, bc as your sister said at your funeral, the more we cried to movies the more you smiled... so here's to you ;)

had to talk to you today...

but you aren't there. no where to be heard. from time to time I watch your beautiful pic on fb, and I see how much ppl miss you and love you. like me.

it's not ok that ur gone. i just hope that you're having a good time up there. if anybody knows how to have a good time though, it's u!
miss u and love u J.