I <3 Sweden!

I do! maybe im more mature now, to realize how much I really do love Sweden! I don't know if I'm ready to live here as yet... but it is great! =) Today it's been snowing it's freezing cold, but today Ive been on the inside with my family, brothers, nieces and nephews and friends! for dinner we had moose and champagne while watching the fireplace, laughing together! I had a great time! thank you all, from the bottow of my heart! =) I love you!

out of my mind...

A slippery day!

Freakin cold and slippery in Gothenburg today. I had my sweet Johanna who caught me before I sat down on my ass in front of the whole city. not used to ice ice baby anymore.

i caught up with some old friends of mine, you know that they're really your friends when you haven't seen them for awhile but it only seems like minutes. that's them.

Still on Cali time i believe cause Im falling asleep during the day and stay up at night. not that convenient now is it?!

last full day in Sweden tomorrow, and then back to Rome. Then god only knows where Ill go next. Let's just hope that 2010 will be better than 2009, but then again...Im sure it will be! This is it, this is going to be my year! ;)

flu season

So I went out on the 25th, the biggest reunion-partyday in Sweden. I had some reunion alright. Met my ex, who had just broken up with his girlfriend, and was now ready to get married and have kids, he asked me if I was ready too. ha! then since I always find myself in drama, his ex came up to me to have a chat. it was the weirdest thing, I've never seen her before in my life. but she was sweet, a bit confused I believe, I don't blame her, love makes us confused sometimes, and sometimes it's heaven, and sometimes it's hell. Anyway, I got a bit tipsy to say the least, and in the taxi back home to my girlfriend's I puked. very embarrassing! I haven't done that since me and my bestfriend were 18 I believe, now I did it again 10 years later. the only thing is that I didn't stop when I got into her apartment, no it got worse, and after have been laying on the bathroom floor for three hours I gave in and called my dad. It was the longest ride ever to get back to their house, also cause the salt truck (to clean the snowy roads) was driving right in front of us. All I can say is thank god my daddy had remembered to bring me something to puke in. cause I puked alright, until 3 pm the next day!

so sweet, im in sweden for 6 days and got sick on my second day! Im just terribly sorry that now I won't be able to see my friend and their newborns, well I guess I just have to get back here soon enough, before they turn one at least!

to the most difficult question in my life now and that everybody seems to ask me: what is my plan? yeah, what is it.... all i know is

its....

snowing cats and dogs I believe. soon Im gonna take the car and drive to meet some friends in the city. help! don't know if I remember how to drive on snow, now that Im more used to California...

una canzone per me....

e nn me lo aspettavo eh... ahahaha

nono nn mortacci mia.... mortacci tua, ora sono i .... tuoi ;)

lots of love

and happiness I wish you all and a merry merry christmas.

someone very special to me reminded me today, that even though Im confused in life right now Im in a position that many people only could dream of, Im in snowy Sweden surrounded with my lovely family! I am happy! I am lucky! When Santa then came to ask me what I wished for...I told him... a nice and happy future! Let's hope he can grant my wishes for this year!

in the meanwhile... let's listen to this and dream away....

sleeping

im still in bed. it's 4pm. i don't know if it is the fact that Im still on California time, or that I wake up during the nights still, or that im scared of my future.

talking about the future. have my dad on the phone, he put me on hold, twice. and when he talks he explains everything, in the tiniest detail. it gets really annoying, but he is my father so I have to listen, or at least pretend I do. sometimes I put him on speaker and do other things, like now. hahahaha. today he had to tell me that he had to go to a christmas luncheon. it took him 15 minutes to get to that, because before that he had to tell me about his employees and their traditions, where they're originally from, and that this summer they couldn't have the annual summer luncheon in this guy's new house, that my mom had helped them buy, but on that day their little daughter had ear infection, as my dad could recall, and therefore they were now having the christmas luncheon in their house today, but then my dad had to leave cause he had to work. wow. he's funny. btw i left out some other small stories he added in there, thought it was enough for you to read already.

my dad gave me the explanation to way im tired though, im exhausted. he's probably right. it's been hectic lately + all the emotions of leaving everything and coming back to rome. and when I packed the bags all the emotions came back too, well it's been a rollercoaster of emotions the past 9 months. and the ride is not over yet. right now I feel like Im at the top, ready to go down. scaaaary.

in other words: confusion big time!

Rome Sweet home?!

I'm back in Rome, it feels like I've never left. Only that it is cold, and my phone doesn't ring, cause it doesn't work. They gave my number away to someone else. weird. It's strange to be back, but good, I've missed my friends a lot! and Rome! ever since I stepped foot in California I couldn't wait to be back in Rome. Now that Im here and that I've experienced something else, it's not quite the same though.

It started at the airport in Rome once we landed. I parked my trolley close to the thing where the bag comes, cause they were many and heavy. around me there was plenty of space. however, these two women, in my age, decided to stand right in front of me, and placed their bags there too. I mean, how smart can you get? it has actually none to do with that. they had to do it, out of principal, cause they thought that I was American and they wanted to show me that here, they ruled. right. I only felt sorry for them, I didn't even ask them to move. Instead this really sweet girl behind me started to speak to me in English, I answered polite back in Italian, and all of a sudden the ladies in front of me disappeared, how funny is that?! my phone didn't work, so I asked this gentleman to lend me his, he did.

Another thing that Im not used to anymore, is all the comments, and looks. hahaha I had totally forgotten about them. annoying, it really is.

so day 1: slept all day. I didn't sleep on the plane cause it was a bumpy road. and the kid next to me couldnt wake his mother up, so he decided to wake me up instead. great! then i couldn't fall back to sleep. I was getting paranoid, also due to the fact that I hadn't slept the past 24hrs and was running on day 2 without any sleep. It even got to the point when I was ready to grab the phone and call my mom and tell her I loved them all. I didn't. thank god it didn't get that dramatic. only once again I realized that I am the drama queen, ha!

day 2: slept til 3 cause I don't sleep during the night. Had to drive in the Roman traffic once again. tougher than I was used to now. i was exhausted after 10 minutes, and then I had only made it about 500 meters, been yelled at and honked at a couple of times. almost put two people and a dog under the car (cause I looked in the rear mirrors) and almost hit a scoter. On my to fix my italian number, that I had accidently blocked, only to realize that I didn't remember the number anymore. Had to go back and find it. an hour later, i was back with the right number, when they told me i needed my social security number as well. hm, I should have known better, but obviously I hadn't brought it. They found it though! however, Vodafone had decided I've been away too long so it looks like they've given my number to someone else. great! now Im going to suit them, a friend of a friend did and got 3000 euros. it's worth the try, even if it might be another one of those great roman stories.

Welcome back to Rome! ;)

one week to go...

and this is the weather forecast. wow. san diego is crying. and so will I.

Stoked

Im stoked!! i just finished another online class-on SKYPE!

This was my favorite class too-marketing planning with professor Brian! Following from home was amazing! didn't talk as much as I usually do though. sometimes I put on mute, but he is on top of things the prof so immediately he made sure I was back tuned in.

I thought I was going to be able to work on the newsletter while I was listening to the class, but shame on me, that didn't work. ha!

I'm really gonna miss him and the class!

here I am on the white board, prof Brian looking at me while we are taking a picture for our case study for PONY shoes! Sweet!

another day on the couch

feeling much better today, no fever, more energy.

a good day to stay in and finish all of those projects for work and cases for school.

Start to send out my resume and hopefully get a job too!

it looks like its gonna be a productive day!

skype me!

Right now Im listening to our final presentations, from the couch snuggled in. I'm sooo disappointed that I can't be there. I really like the class and our team had done a great job!

Well I couldn't beat the fever, but I can still be there, virtually! that's what I call sweet!

(and the best part is probably that I can do other things like writing my blog, when there are boring parts, like now, this Indian engineer trying to talk about social media, he said that he found a new profession, but I do think that he should stick with his original one... sorry I'm just being honest! ;) and maybe a bit biased, cause he is not part of my team. ha!

not feeling fantastic

I'm not feeling fantastic right now. I have a terrible congestion and my body aches. It sucks, it really does. I have my final presentations this week and I have to present a PR case for two companies. Really exciting, but not now! I feel like shit, how will I be able to present and be convincing with a running nose and a whiskey voice? hahaha I don't know, but I'll let you know.

then a friend of mine asked me to help him ship a package. I asked him what it was, since Im really busy right now with everything both work and school, he told me that it was snowboard boots, and he had already shipped them to my house. I didn't have the chance to stop him. I knew that it was going to be a hassle already! now he's been annoying me every single day, cause he has to leave on Friday to go to Cortina and ski. That is typical Italian organization, it = 0!

He didn't think about the fact that I might not have the money to ship it right now, or the time to evaluate different shipping methods, and definitely NOT the time to get stressed over him calling, texting me 10 times a day to make sure that I shipped them. Especially now when Im already stressing out cause Im sick in bed and have to finish my school. Im really sorry but his f-ing snowboard boots are the last thing on my mind. I can assure you of that.

however, im on my way to ship them now so that I can get rid of it. god, I hate that i'm so nice sometimes! (or stupid maybe?)