i've lost it

it has been a month since I've got back from SoCal.

I was all prepared and everything. then i started to help my man out at his club. Fun yes, bad choice YES!

It doesn't matter how much I love him, working together, living together, eating together.. well yeay you got the rest.. leaves us always together!!!! 24/7! it's not healthy, and I've lost it. I've lost the spirit of creating, always waking up late, not seeing the sun and always behind the bar in a crowded place inhaling smoke 8 hours, that is not why I got my two bachelors and masters. Don't get me wrong though, I love the fact that I can actually help him out, and that people like my drinks and that they are coming back. I LOVE IT! I just don't wanna be there every night.

In fact I'm planning an escape for him too, he can't take it anymore either, i mean he's been there every day since this summer...I know he's lost it too! a weekend somewhere else...sounds...just fantastic!

I need to get a job that will keep my good spirits up so I sent my resume to a couple of places. the one place that I least expected a response from, were actually the ones first responding! ha! I guess I haven't lost it all after all! ;)

the sun is out, and the spring is on it's way.... So am I. I'm on my way of finding us a bigger apartment, even though we love our little crib, we won't be able to fit any longer....

Keep your fingers crossed for me that I'll get this job, will ya?!!!