it's been hell, and then again not.
i've been in sweden, it's been... well hm... interesting.
i had a life before coming here. not a normal life, but my reality. for a "normal" person with a "normal job", it probably does not seem like a "real life". so different and far away from the everyday life to them. this summer I've been living "the normal person, normal job, real life".
didn't like it at all in the beginning. now after almost 2,5 months, I got into it. with a little help from my friends... so thank you! and all those wonderful, fantastic, good energy people that I've the pleasure to meet! amazing. i needed this. yet... im lost. it hurts. im sad. and then sometimes Im really happy, and then I feel a bit guilty just because I have those moment of pure joy. im sure you want me to be happy though...
tomorrow morning, actually more in like 5 hours, im leaving, to go back to my "old" life...
not sure what to think about that... i'm scared, nervous, I don't want it to be like it used to be... I've became a little more "swedenalized"
i do miss rome though and all the people I love there. it's gonna be really nice to get some heat and sun too!
i just don't want and need to be confused anymore. the time is now...
i also discovered something today, that made me really sad. I just hope that it was only a mistake...otherwise a piece of my heart will break.
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