in winter wonderland

i am...in winter wonderland. it´s really nice actually. the other night after our family dinner (we are twelve at the table...with one missing, and two on the way;) so imagine what crazy dinners we have) then everybody out in the snow for some snow sleighing hahahah I was chicken shit scared (well after all im newly operated) then out with my friends. Ive said it before, Im saying it again, Im getting old, it´s not as fun as back in the days to go out. 

and then it happened again, every time I go out in sweden, italians finds me, they always say that they can see from far that Im italian, even though I look more swedish than the princess herself. funny isn´t? they´re right too, I actually feel more italian than swedish nowadays. well not that weird after all hihi. 

as always I can´t meet with everybody I wanna see, nor can I spend as much time as I want too with them I actually do get to see. 

it´s confusing to be at home, when I miss my own home. with my man, in italy. 

my friend G told me today, only important lives have important and difficult decisions to make, otherwise life wouldn´t be that special. I guess she is right. I only wish I knew the right answer. it would in deed help a lot.