two worlds, one life

that´s what I have right now. I live everyday my life in italy with my man through skype. however my "real" life is in California now. Im full of emotions and it´s really hard when your world turn upside down. It´s kind of the same emotion from when I was drowning, I had no idea what was up or down anymore. Felt like I was in a dryer. I just hope that the program finish soon, I need to get out. I need to feel at home.