someone

someone said something about me to a friend of mine yesterday. something bad, but since the person does not know me, it became quite funny. of course I got mad at first when i heard it, but then I was thinking about it, and came to the conclusion that the person who said it, is so stupid that he does not even know himself. and the fact that he contradicted himself when he said it made it even more funny. and yes, he is italian, from the countryside, so yes, that explains the maturity of his words. ha! 

the carpet issue

it´s still fucking wet. thank god my landlord had shoes on today when he was here! 

aaargh...what are you gonna do? btw why do they put in the carpet in the first place? it doesnt even look nice....

i think...

that all roads lead to rome in the end. that´s where Im going in a month. to see my beautiful city again!!! 

and of  course min elsk! =) 

wanna know a secret???

http://www.thesecret.tv/living-the-secret.html 

f-ing juice

aaaargh, why does the americans put carpet in the apartments? and if that would be bad enough, they have to put it in the kitchen too, well not where you have your stove (they were thinking a little, not bad) but where you put your table. 

I´m not human before I have my coffee (the italian in me;) so of course im walking around like a zombie in the morning. I had a glass of juice (well half of it) and put it on the table. I had to sit down, moved my computer, and the glass fell down. ON THE F-ING CARPET!!!!! I mean, how do you clean it??? you can´t! you just have to dry it, and pretend that the stain is not gonna stay, and you have to believe that the carpet is really clean (cause you´re vacuuming it) but then you know, that the carpet is soooo dirty, that it´s not even funny, cause it´s impossible to clean a f-ing carpet with a vacuumer. oh god, how much patience must a poor woman have?

baby business

Probably one of the most hilarious commercials right now. wanna do business with the babies??

keep in mind

"Keep in mind that out of confusion comes clarity, and with patience, persistence, determination, and curiosity you will uncover the story told by the data-one that holds together and provides direction that you can be confident in following."

Taken from my marketing research book, guerrilla marketing research. 

just thought that it really suits for my life right now. 

wasting time

Are you like me? Are you spending time on doing the wrong things?

which then actually leads to the fact that you are wasting your time. I ´m sitting here at home studying for an exam tomorrow, and of course Im thinking about everything but the exam. Im analyzing my time and it led me to think about the fact that most of the time, Im quite lazy and I just spend my time on stupid things. Im in California, so I should be traveling more, exploring my surroundings, but what do I do? I do the same things every day, most of the time just sitting at home in front of the computer. That´s bad. Am I a computer nerd? no, cause I don´t even know that many things about the computers, it´s just that Im lazy. I need to stop wasting my time. I need to L I V E. 

I´m afraid

that people sometimes perceive me wrong. I´m a strong person, outgoing, and I do have a lot of experience, both of life and work related. I´ve lived a little all over and I have friends from all over the world, which have helped me to grow my cultural awareness and curiosity of getting to know other people. There is always something going on around me, and I sometimes always more or less succeed in creating stories. I´m quite easy to remember I believe. 

I love to talk to people, sometimes I know that i talk too much, and I love to help people, by sharing my stories. that´s what Im afraid of, that some people take me for a stuck-up, which Im not, or they might think that I think Im better than them (well sometimes I just might be, no just kidding!!!) 

however, Im also very alone. Sometimes I think about how fast time passes and the more time I spend alone, that´s when i realize. I´m afraid of being alone. I really am, yet that is what I am. 

i´m just scared that people who does not know me, think that Im someone else. But at the same time, if they don´t get me, then who are they to judge?! 

Nobody is perfect, I´m definitely NOT. not at all. 

Couldn´t sleep

I had a presentation this morning, was somewhat nervous. not about the presentation per see, but about not waking up on time and make it there, since the whole group depends on each other. I made it though. I did wake up on time too. first time at midnight, looked at the clock and realized it was a bit early. second time I woke up, got up and into the kitchen to make myself a coffee, turned around and looked on the time on the microwave, it said 3:00 am. Fantastic, I had woken up, but waaaaay too early. so back to bed again. then i finally got up the right time. went to class and got it done and over with!

the other night I woke up in the middle of the night too, and went online to find my man on skype! what a joy, he stayed with me online until I fell asleep, singing this song....iiiiii he´s such a sweetie. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fpns_a4Nuvo

two worlds, one life

that´s what I have right now. I live everyday my life in italy with my man through skype. however my "real" life is in California now. Im full of emotions and it´s really hard when your world turn upside down. It´s kind of the same emotion from when I was drowning, I had no idea what was up or down anymore. Felt like I was in a dryer. I just hope that the program finish soon, I need to get out. I need to feel at home. 

do you travel?

IF you do, please help me fill out this survey. it will take 2-3 minutes of your time, and it helps me a LOT! 

thank you guys! Please, spread the link to your friends and family too, just copy and paste it to them. The more answers the better for me! =) 

http://www.survs.com/survey?id=2Q2KSU6B&channel=ZEM2T349Q4

new ads

Here we go again, us swedes, aren´t we just fantastic?? ;) A car that brakes for itself! absofuckingfaboulus!




Puma did it well too, with product placement with a new artist who had the hit my new shoes. It´s all about being creative people!



and use colors!!!

it just...

turned around from being bad to good. 

didn´t at all want to go to a group meeting. Im glad I did, it turned me around. I need to socialize more, instead of sitting at home and go crazy. out out out and out I go. 

i gotta make sure that Ill make it.

i gotta get a grip. Im freaking out. literally. ahaha 

i guess too much happened in too short span of time. 

well i just gotta realize that is life. since two days, i´ve actually been out jogging, well at least tried. =) got some good energy! hopefully my luck turns around and Ill get back to the smiling me again. can´t wait. 

it´s all peachie

everything is just fucking peachie here in wonderland! 

god, someone really mustn´t like me. I have a bad curse. can I ever be happy? Or do I always have to be this bitter bitch that I am right now?! 

everthing is just going wrong now too. my vacuum cleaner just broke down. but for what reason? why??? I really can´t take it anymore. can I just please, just for one week maybe? or more if i dare to ask, be fucking happy????? i think that is just too much to ask, and you can´t even say that Im not trying to stay positive. i am. I really have been. now, my glass is loooong overfilled with water and the water is running out everywhere. even on my floor i can see it. btw where the fuck does that water come from? better check. great!!!!

3rd of June

that is so far away. and that´s only when he has the appointment to go to the embassy, it´s not even sure that they´ll give him a visa. oh god!!! destiny is playing with us. it´s just that it´s breaking me down, slowly, but surely. I´m strong, but c´mon, I´m only human too. 

Thank god that I don´t have the name of the bitch that wouldn´t let him pass. I´m sorry but she will suffer too, I made sure. Cause you don´t wanna play with me!!! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v6xi7VY8iDM

romeo and juliette

i feel like im in a movie. 

kind of like this.

a pearl

A pearl is a beautiful thing that is produced by an injured life. It is the tear [that results] from the injury of the oyster. The treasure of our being in this world is also produced by an injured life. If we had not been wounded, if we had not been injured, then we will not produce the pearl. 

a phone call away

i was preparing everything yesterday for his arrival. then I hear my phone ringing. it´s him, great then he is on time i was thinking. he told me: "amore, they won´t let me enter." i thought he was joking, cause he usually does. but no, the next voice on the phone was the one from a woman. a police. she told me that they had arrested him and was sending him back. so there I was from running around doing the happy dance to lying on the floor crying and screaming and begging the woman to let him come to me. she refused. she said he stayed 5 months instead of 3 in 2002. 

c´mon he´s been back since!!!! be no she refused. and so they sent him back. my love, my man.

it´s such a torture being without him. I had waited for two months to finally get to see him. but no, now god only knows when Ill see him again. 

but it made my decision easier. im going back home to rome. not now, but sooner than later. first I gotta finish what I started here. 

but it hurts, this is torture. 

the house today, feels so empty without him, just because he was suppose to be here now, with me. now im all alone. all alone again. 

i can´t sleep

...cause he is on his way. im sooo nervous. hihihihihi

min elskling is on his way!!!!! 

Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand. 

- Albert Einstein

so keep dreamin that dream people!!! ;)

finally

after been having to wait for two months, now he is coming my man! 

im really superduper excited!!! can´t wait. don´t miss you flight elsk!!! ;) mi raccomando! 

sometimes you just...

realize where you are. whereas other times you are just running around not really thinking, you are just letting you´re life pass by. 

miss you

I miss you, im sorry about earlier. you know I get like this sometimes. 

it´s hard, it´s been harder than I thought it would be. that´s all. Im strong though. Ill make it. somehow, i always do. 

the past, the present and the future

that is what is on my mind right now. thinking about my past and how it makes me act in the present, and hopefully what I understand now, will change my future. are u with me? if you are, please tell me, cause I dont know up or down anymore. help!

tired

that´s what i am. really, really tired. you know sometimes you just wish you were a kid again and could just sleep through oh well basically everything. that´s what i wanna do now. sleep. get rest. 

nothing has turned out to be what I thought it would be. i don´t know if that´s good or bad yet. i really don´t know. all I know is that it left me really tired. just let me sleep. 

all I want

is sunshine! live relaxed and be happy. is that too much to ask for? elsk, jag älskar dig, i really do. =)

thought

To see a world in a grain of sand,

and a heaven in a wild flower,

hold infinity in the palm of your hand,

and eternity in an hour.

thanks to M.

im a muppet

today ive been dancing like that. ahaha

I´m ALIVE!!!!!!!

OMG Im so happy to sit here and write today!!! yesterday I almost drowned. No, Im not joking. 

I was out surfing, my shoulder got dislocated when a series of waves arrived and I got tangled up with the board and couldn´t move. I swallowed a lot of water and was just ready to give up, when there they were, the angels, they came from nowhere....the life guards! OH THANK GOD!!! 

Someone really wants me alive! =)

three ways

there are three ways that you can take. The wrong way, the right way, or his way.
time to choose maybe baby?

good tune

i wish..

i could sleep...im not used to this kind of life. i need to sleep and wake up from this nightmare. 

c told u...

that im procrastinating hahaha

mr hassle is a talented guy

procrastinating-BIG time baby!

if not the biggest, im in the high top of the  procrastination list!

I have a research paper due tomorrow, and here I am sitting on my couch in my living room and am doing everything BUT writing (on my paper). I have all kinds of excuses. "gotta listen to this song, then Ill get inspired." "no gotta eat first otherwise i can´t concentrate." "maybe I should take a shower so that I wake up?"when all I need to do is just let everything else go and write. just f-ing write. and not on here, no my paper people! first I just gotta.....hm....

listen to this.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bWykcqJ2MHk

swedish hit???

took a glance at the swedish hit list and found this??? is it a joke or what??? ahahaha

im a natural blonde...

so...be patient cause sometimes it takes time for me to get things. but once I do get them. oh how I get them good! ;) 

numbers

i know numbers, spending them. putting them into accounting is something different. and much worse. believe me. tomorrow I have to hand in an accounting exam. I need to complete the numbers. but how the F am I suppose to get them? people, please, im not studying finance....Im studying marketing. ok, ok i knoooow that it´s important to know...but thats why you hire people to do it for you, or no? 

I mean, take a look yourself, what looks more fun to you? 

this

or this

?????????????????????????

well there you go! so please can someone help me?

can´t believe it

slowly slowly it´s catching up with me. reality. I can´t believe that he is coming. Ive been waiting for two months, two looooooong months. when he first told me I didnt wanna believe him. now after talking to my mother and my friends about the news, it hit me. MY BABY IS COMING! Can´t wait!!!!!!!!!!! e vieni vieni elsk!!!! ;)

I got an email

with the words.....

baby on saturday the 16th put your best dress on and pick me up at the airport!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had to read it 10 times...I couldn´t believe it! 

today on the phone he had to tell me again that it was true....AND IT IS!!!! MY BABY IS FINALLY COMING!!!!! 

amazing

Im just so very lucky! Ive got to know these amazing people! J and M took me out for drinks and food then we went to a house warming party with ppl from my university! the best people ever. and I sat down on the couch and guess what, the guy next to me grew up on the same street as me in Sweden!!! I mean what are the odds??? 0-1000000?

now Im at home in bed, just so happy. one of my friends told me something beautiful, and it made me feel good again. i need to believe. i really do. 

you cannot not laugh

when you see this...the cutest ever!!

my head is spinning

i went to listen to erick morillo downtown SD yesterday. it was fantastic. too bad it didn´t last longer...

only a person who are willing to take risks are free

A dear friend of mine had posted this on her blog (no worries of course Ill translate it into English at the end!) if you don´t know her you wouldnt know, but these words are just hers....M i miss u! 

Att skratta är att riskera att framstå som en dåre.
Att gråta är att riskera att verka sentimental.
Att sträcka sig efter någon är att riskera engagemang.
Att uttrycka känslor är att riskera att visa sitt sanna jag.
Att visa sina tankar och drömmar för andra är att riskera att förlora dem.
Att älska är att riskera att inte bli älskad tillbaka.
Att leva är att riskera att dö.
Att hoppas är att riskera förtvivlan.
Att försöka är att riskera att misslyckas.
Men risker måste tas, för den största faran i livet är att inte riskera någonting alls. En person som inte riskerar något gör ingenting, har ingenting och är ingenting. Han eller hon kanske slipper lidande och sorg, men han kan inte lära sig något, inte känna, förändra sig, växa, älska, leva. Han är så bunden av sitt behov av trygghet att han är en slav: han har förverkat sin frihet.

Bara en människa som tar risker är fri.

to laugh is to risk looking like you are a maniac

to cry is to risk seeming like a sentimental 

to reach out for someone is to risk engagement

to express feelings is to risk showing your true self

to talk about your dreams and thoughts to others is a risk of loosing them

to love is a risk of not being loved back

to live is the risk of dying

to hope is to risk despair

to try is to risk failure

but you gotta make those risks, because the biggest danger in life is not risking at all.

A person who doesn´t risk anything, has nothing, does nothing and is nothing.

He or she might be saved from sorrow and pain, but cannot learn anything, feel anything, change anything, not grow, not love, nor live. 

he is so attached of his need of security that he is like a slave, he has no liberty.

Only a person who dare to take risks is free. 

what´s up and what´s down?

I don´t know anymore. I´m soooo tired and I wake up several time during the night. please let me just sleeeeep. 

Im running late for school, again! great! 

I can´t wait for my life to get back to normal. right now Im way too confused, and I don´t like it. 

I want my real life back. now, please???